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07/17/2004: "HATEHATEHATEKILLFUCKINGKILLHATE"

I fucking hate my friends. Period.
I feel like I wanna cry all day long and lock myself up in my room. I've been feeling this since 7th grade goddamnit. When is my luck with friends going to change?

I wanna vent yet I'm too tired to do so. I wanna talk to somebody but I don't know who. I want somebody to cheer me up but there's nobody.

Maybe I'll go & play Ragnarok Online now for a while and kill some monsters pretending they're my friends or something. Now is the time I wish Battle Royale is real. YEs, I"m in a really bad mood now.

I even bumped into other's car while driving.. imagine that. Good thing there's no scratch or anything and he wouldn't take it to court. Altho I was yelling and blaming him more than just letting it go.

I just can't take this stress, this tension, this....anger. They don't blend well together. I could just pretend everything is ok in front of my friends but inside I'm hurting... really bad. They've opened up an old wound >.<

Sorry just needed to let that all out.

Replies: 3 Comments

Fran || Friday, July 23rd, 2004

hey Tany^^ dis Fran droppin by to say hi

i am very sorry u are feeling this way now.but it's great to get it out,ne?hope things get better*huggles*<--from me.

*BIG HUG*<--from Nino<3

Videl || Wednesday, July 21st, 2004

*hugs* >.<
i always searching for you on aim! perhaps you were sleeping that time. i wish i was there to cheer you up! yeh...like linz said, i also dunno which friends you fucking hate right now, but still i'm gonna help you kick their arse!! if you hate me then i'll kick my own butt...eh...no...i'll spank myself...cuz i cannot kick myown back...
cheer up girl! should i call nino to give you flowers and sing and strum his guitar?

Linz || Saturday, July 17th, 2004

Heh...we are so much alike you have no fucking clue. *HUG* I'm really sorry you're feeling so hurt...I don't know what else to say since I don't even know how to deal with it myself I'm always here if you need to talk tho.

I'm not sure what friends you are referring to either, as in online or off. If On, I'm really sorry I haven't really talked to you that much recently. Time zones are a bitch..